I thought, we were equal.

The maid that comes to my house for sweeping and dusting work gave a major blow to my senses.


She was mishandling the handle and lock of every door of my home. It could almost break. I asked her to do it slowly otherwise it would break. She repudiated me. And informed me, that she was cleaning my room, and instead of praising her, I am scolding her. I, politely, replied.. Handles will break, and will be in pieces, if she continued to mishandle it. And then, she said what was it that mattered me, and informed me that it was not my home, but was my brothers'.  Plus, Only males are heads of the family. I silenced.


Oh God! It was a blow. I thought about it again and again.


I wondered, Is this education, that has broadened our ways of thinking? Only if she would have understood that its an equal world that is evolving, Differences would automatically fall in place. Women are themselves demeaning themselves. What will men do? 


Signing off, Leaving all you readers with-  One should never give up her/his self respect for anything. Coz if we don't respect ourselves, no one will. 


Also, i would like you to ponder upon the way I have reacted. You are all "educated" people. Put in your views. 

Dear Forward Message Senders,

Everyday, I get a lot of forward messages, informing me 'this is life', 'that's life', etc. I hope, you would be able to connect it with what I am trying to say. Some say- "follow these seven principles to lead a happy life", and what not.


When at midnight, you are half asleep, and the message like this arrives, How do you feel? I don't think, It has changed your life, or something like that. You probably curse the sender,  who has sent you the text. Of course, I feel exasperated.


We all are living life, and sailing on the same boat probably. Some are in their high tides, and some could be in low tides. I would like to pose this question to my not-so-dear forward-message-senders, that do they exactly follow these principles, and lead "the required happy life". Has anyone of them who forwards these, understood the essence of life, and is willing to stay contended with whatever is happening around them. I am sceptic about it. We all have the right to live the way we feel, we should. We all commit mistakes, and learn from it. Do I offend you, senders?


I am aware of the fact that technology users have exploded their usage, but please.. at least, respect the privacy of the recipient. Free messages are all in the air, Even I use the scheme. But that never gave anyone the right to invade in the privacy.


Not only these, but the network messages have become a major problem to our lives. They aren't aware of the situations we are in, and they repeatedly, keep sending messages to buy this real estate, to buy that membership... and god knows what! Hell. In the scarce situation, when your closed one is on death bed, would you like to see such kind of a message? Or situation can be anything like you are studying, writing an article, or even cooking. How does it matter?


Our lives are full of problems as it is. And these messages just add on to the stress. These messages do no good to anyone. If my dear senders, you are so fond of sending forwards, send santa-banta jokes, so that if not anything else, it makes the other person smile and helps to release her/him from stress. That is still acceptable.


Of course, Its my urge to the people to stop sending the messages. I am fed-up of these nonsense messages. And wish to see no more of them. And regarding life, I'd like to commit my own set of mistakes and learn from them. Please, If you are still so adamant to not stop, see the time before you forward these kind of messages.


P.S.- Just while writing this, I got three forwards from three different people. *phew* 

Irreparable time.

Time flies. 

It does. But when in pain, Time doesn't seem to fly. Why is it when, we are happy and spend the good time, we don't realize the amount of time spent. But when we are suffering or in some deep shit, we see our watch after every minute.

My college is getting over- hopefully, if I pass. Of course, I spent the awesome time there. I know, time can never come back.  But, when I look back into the time, I realize- I've changed tremendously, and So does my thinking line. 

There are numerous people I held responsible for making me whatever I am. Yes, I have realized- I am something. Most importantly. College days have empowered me, encouraged me and changed me. I shall never forget the days I spent in that vicinity. The college became special, because of the friends and teachers who taught me. It wouldn't be same, if anyone of these would be missing. I won't name here. But people who read this, are of course the major part of my college days. I've learnt a great deal from all of them.

Sometimes, I wonder- Where I would be without college,when it gets over. No answer echoes back to me. I don't know. I might do good in life, or it can be other way also. Undecided of the admissions, *vexed* It is a strange feeling. Exams are just around the corner. And I should have been studying big time, day and night. But I am pouring out my heart here. 

I am not ready to believe I have grown up. Like what?  I was a kid, a child yesterday. And not a child anymore. This is a scary feeling. When I was young, I was so excited to go to college. And now when its getting over, I am scared of the life ahead. I know, my life has just begun, as every grey-haired person tells me. But, Life so far, has showed me the differences between good and bad. and Also, taught me that- life's not gonna be easy. 

I am excited to know, what's going to happen. What am I going to become. Whether I be able to achieve what I desire and aim to be.

Its just a feeling, and a bad time I am going through. Time is not flying, because things are good. 

I think, now its the time to take a deep breath. And introspect more.  

P.s.- I couldn't say anything on my farewell day, but I wanted to say. Thanks all of you for being there for me. You shall be missed. And those days, might be experienced once again, if we are together.