Dearest...

A word to say, a word to hear..

even in ur absence i feel you near,

i want you to see, i want u to feel

you are that important to me

as India's nuclear deal..

Day passes in pain..

with you,seems like a gain,

i plee you immensely..

leave me never lonely..

I am pining for love of you,

i yearn to be with thou,

Days pass cheerless,

nights, i roll wretched..

Come to me, my love

for your absence is distressing..

i feel you in my fingers,

i feel you in my toes...

and the gloom continues................

Face "not matching" psyche

She smiles,

she is happy,

she is jocular,

she is lovable,

she is surrounded,

but..

something is wrong,

something is unsaid,

Her inner turmoil is known only to her,

she refuses to share,

she can't speak her heart,

she cant drop her pearly tears,

perhaps,she is

a destitute

a desolate

the withdrawn

the secluded...

:(((

FOODIE GAGAS...

I am always hungry to eat.. I sometimes dont understand why do i eat so much.. Obviously I am aware of the repercussions of my increasing weight day by day.. But i just cannot resist the food..  I am a big time foodie, and when it comes to my favourites... I go gagas..

My day is incomplete if i dont eat any of my favourites all day long.. I feel so vacuous when i dont chew something, i wonder, whether i m living to eat.. When i smell the aroma of the food.. all kinds of fluids secrete in my mouth.. Now, lemme mention some of my favourites which i can never resist-watsoever may be.. PAANI POORI, MAGGIE, PANEER KI SABJI WITH NAAN, PIZZAS, MC D 'S BURGER, CHHOLE BHATURe, ICECREAMS, CHOCS,ALL KINDA SWEETS..n there are more.. (SHY)

I feel as if my life is at stake when anybody asks me to go for dieting... i feel like... completely frustrated.. I love street food, from the time i am in college.. Sometimes, when i dream of getting a slim figure.. one of a girly types.. i GET motivated.. but the next day, i cant resist... I am a tallow, and a bit oversized creature, i know... BUT , i cant give up food.. i was flabbergasted when one of my friend, said.. she was on dieting, even when she had a perfect figure.. 

Damm all those who diet.. i really cant, i have been trying from so long, but couldnt be succesful for more than two days.. and ya, exercising is what i am very lazy about, I often wonder how ll i look ..when i ll be fatter... but, I CANT GIVE UP MY FAVOURITES.. 

Everybody at my home, gives me various kinds of avarices to reduce down my weight ..yet I DONT CARE...

P.S- after reading this blog, if you think what kind of girl i am, dont bother... i love food, and my problem.. can be understood my only those.. who are facing the same problem...

I LOVE FOOD  (winks******)

Mom's love

Something that is still pure.. is only mom's love.. I am her only daughter, I can now, make out that.. if the woman of the house is not selfless.. the family can never live in tranquility, if she always keep up her ego, i bet nobody in the family, would even care about her wellbeing...

I am writing all this today, because my mom made me incharge of the kitchen for two days.. and the days are unending.. they are the longest days ever.. I am hating all the household chores i have to do, but cannot back out, thinking of how she manages to do everything so perfectly...i can now understand how difficult is to manage a kitchen, but she MANAGES our houses, and make it so perfect for us to live that we are able to call it "home sweet home"and makes it the best place for us to live in.. Can anybody deny on this?We miss our homes, once we go away.. dont we..??I literally cried amuck when i last left my home, alone for a month.. 

She wakes up at 6'o clock in the morning, and does all the work untiringly , unselfishly..Always eats after we all have eaten, Why??? Just for one common reason, that she can do anything for her kids.. she sacrifices her aims, her ambitions, and find her only happiness in seeing us smile..  and we dont even compliment her for the food she cooks, dont even notice the new saree she puts on.. Believe me, i really got frustrated when my dad forgot to compliment me for the tasteless food i cooked, that was so unappetising that even i could nt eat.. but even then i needed the appreciation. I get annoyed when i put on a new dress, and nobody notices it.. i feel like not wearing it ever again...!!

Till date, whenever i cry.. i wipe off and carry a smile to her.. she, on the first go- asks me, why did i cry? i fail to understand how she manages to read my mind and my ostensible smile!! 

I often wonder, just after few more years.. how ll I be able to be so selfless.. how ll I shed all of my ego and manage to keep the same selfless smile that my mom displays.. Undoubtedly,God has made mothers his substitute.. Atleast I dont have any person in my life as her, but still why do we forget to tell her.. 

I am complete in tears by now.. Just wanna say, ACKNOWLEDGE HER,she ll love you even more then she did yesterday..!! :"( 

I LOVE U Mumma.. 

SoMeOnE....

For someone, who is so dear..

for someone, who is altruistic to me..

for someone, who is matchless..

for someone, who is juzz mine...

i can't explain my love in the words..

yet... i m trying..

for the first time,when our eyes met..

there was a shiver in my retina,

for something was so just in your eyes

I LOVED YOUR EYES...

 Refined ettiquetes, Courteous speech

Heartthrobbing personality

Accutely amicable, Unselfishly soul,

words fall short to describe you

By then, i had fallen in love with you,

my heart 's brimming love for thou,

i love you against all odds

i love you with all my heart..

if ever, i had broken your heart..

kindly forgive me...

if ever i had been rude to you..

i apologize..

just be by my side,

and 

let your heart take toll over 

your worthy mind..

P.S.- dear someone.. hope you read this, and understand how much i love you.. :-(

I MISS YOU..