Strike it off Tag -

I found this pretty interesting in a blog" Moments I Will Cherish" , I went through recently, It's pretty interesting tag and simple. Just strike off the things that you haven't done in your life yet. Here I go :)

1. Smoked a Cigarette.
2. Got so drunk you passed out.
3. Rode every ride at an amusement park.
4. Collected something stupid.( i collect anything, that I feel can be used in craft work)
5. Gone to a Rock Concert. (in my college)
6. Helped someone.(often)
7. Gone fishing.
8. Watched four movies in one night. (Only two, Yes)
9. Lied to someone.
10. Snorted cocaine.
11. Smoked weed.
12. Failed a subject. (Not in finals. Internals-yes. All of us in my class did ;) )
13. Been in a car accident.
14. Been in a tornado.
15. Watched someone die.
16. Been to a funeral.
17. Burned Yourself.
18. Run a marathon.
19. Cried yourself to sleep.(Infinite nights)
20. Flown in an aeroplane.
21. Cheated on someone.
22. Been cheated on.
23. Written a 10 page letter.
24. Gone skiing.
25. Been sailing.
26. Cut yourself.
27. Had a best friend.( No Best friends)
28. Lost someone you loved.
29. Got into trouble for something you didn’t do.
30. Stolen a book from the library. 
31. Gone to a different country.
32. Watched the Harry Potter movies. ( I hate Harry Potter)
33. Had an online diary.(Yeah! )
34. Fired a gun. ( At balloons at the Ramlila Maidan ;) )
35. Gambled in a casino. (  I've been to, but didn't try )
36. Been in a school play.
37. Been fired from a job.
38. Taken a lie detector test.
39. Swam with dolphins.
40. Voted for someone on a reality TV show. ( I did it for Abhijeet Sawant in Indian Idol Season 1)
41. Written poetry. ( Oh yeah!!)
42. Read more than 20 books a year. (Eng honors is all about reading books, and that is what I'm doing).
43. Gone to Europe.
44. Used a colouring book over age 12. ( Oh, I loved that)
45. Had a Surgery.
46. Had stitches.
47. Taken a Taxi.
48. Had more than 5 IM conversations going on at once. ( I'm a girl afterall ;) )
49. Been in a fist fight. ( Yeah with my brother ).
50. Suffered any form of abuse.( Verbal)
51. Had a pet. (I hate them)
52. Petted a wild animal.
53. Had your own credit card & bought something with it.
54. Dyed your hair.
55. Got a tattoo.
56. Had something pierced. (Ear lobes)
57. Known someone personally with HIV or AIDS.
58. Taken pictures with a web cam.
59. Lost something expensive.(My wallet)
60. Gone to sleep with music on. (Often)
    
    Whoever wants to take it up, please do. Have fun. Cheers! 

Strength in togetherness?

We were like a string of pearls in the same thread,

S T R I N G    B R E A K S   O F F ,

What now remains is, A single pearl, all apart! 

What is more precious,

A pearl, or a String of pearls?

I feel low...

I am low because I want to be. I desperately need to share my thoughts, feelings and emotions the way I used to. I have become too much frustrated, possibly because of the monotony in my life;someone said. On one side there is an insurmountable academic pressure and on the other side there is this "void",I am lately feeling in my life. My life seems to be surrounded with all kinds of darkness with no rays of light coming from anywhere. "Things are psychological", someone said.

Whenever I see people, having fun and sharing over the happy and sad moments of their lives, I feel cagey and pity on thyself. I am trying to find answers to my questions , "unknown questions".I always provide myself with reasons to keep me satisfied. But, in real, I know what is the truth.

Automatically, when I think about my life, my tear glands starts functioning. I don't cry, but I sob; whenever I am alone. When I wake up every morning- I find no reasons to carry on with my life. I may be failing. But I think I am learning the different ways the life treat us, and right now I am learning the bad things. See the ways, I keep consoling myself! 

I can no more count on people, and can share my things, I think of the different things they are going to think about me. I dislike the things I used to love at one point of time. My tastes are changing. The way I treat people is changing. I am changing. May be for good. But bad is not yet ruled out of the option. I don't know, what is eating up inside me. I am not being able to find reasons for my sadness. I am not being able to deal with inner me. I don't know , why I keep judging people all the time? Why do I feel this way? Is it common among all the people in my age-group? I need to change, and find the answers for my unknown questions before it is too late.

I have become the one who is glued to her mobile, not to text but to play games.
I have become the one who likes to watch Balika Vadhu sharp at 8'0 clock,
I have become the one who keeps earphones stuck to her ears to listen to radio,
I have become the one who likes to do nothing,
I have become the one who wants to do tit- for-tat for everything,
I have become the one who dresses disastrously,

Instead of
having loads of friends to text,
watching reality shows or may be the talk shows ,
to listen the hip- hop, or hard rock music
having infinite books to read,
having infinite household chores to do,
forgiving and forgetting people,
having the biggest wardrobe people dream to have,

I have become the way I now am.

P.S.- People reading this might think - what kind of article is this, but 'am only trying to vent out my sad feelings, and the way I have been lately feeling about my life.

Grandparents' love

My grandparents are the indispensable part of my life, Their infinite love is what I cannot put up in words. I call my grandpa- dadaji, and grandma- maa!

I lost my dadaji at the age of 14 in an accident, and now I am left with maa, who cares like no one can, who tries to fill in the space we lost long back. I can make out, the pain she undergoes through, when past memories stuck up in her head. I was young and didn't know what I had lost then, but gradually, as I'm getting older , I miss him, I don't remember the days I spent with him, but what all I remember is, I called him- 'telephone waale dadaji', 'coz he was on phone most of the times, the permanent place he used to sit to have lunch as well as dinner, and also the talk show he used to see everyday at 9pm, and I loved to sit with him, to see his grey hair, to see him write, to see him putting on dhoti, He had an aura, that till date , I couldn't find in anybody else. 7th July, is the date he met with an accident, and since then, I curse this date. I let no one in my family travel out station, As I didn't attend his last rituals, I don't know how badly he was hurt. But deep inside, I wanted to see him, I feel that now. I was a kiddo then!

My granny, i.e. maa- is very sweet, humble, kind, and loving. Her place cannot be replaced by anyone else ever. She is the backbone of my family, and believe me, It is important to have a loving hand of elder people over us. And we need their blessings everyday. And from them ,we learn about the antiquity of our family, and their experience about their lives, the kind of life they lead, the kind of food they had.. Everything is changed now, and I know all that 'coz of maa. She is the most caring soul on the earth, in my life! 

Miss you dadaji, and love you maa.. :)

P.S.- Do respect and love your grandparents, they truly deserve the love, C'mon, they are your parents' parents. Treat them with high respect, Love them, Respect them. Please do.