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Thursday, December 3, 2009

Felt elegaic

It was Eid-ul-fitr, Saturday.. and a holiday! I woke up around 8am ; I believed it to be a day normal as other days were.. but it wasn't the same. There was a hustle bustle in and around my home, some expected guests arrived. 

At around 10am, i recieved a message- "****** is no more" , she was my classmate cum friend and to recieve such a message.. i was stupified,  It seemed ,I had lost my senses for another few minutes.. I wasn't crying initially.. but it bewildered me.. I couldn't believe my eyes.. I deleted the message the very next moment, Words were rolled up in my mouth itself, It was the most shocking message of my life till now. So many questions kept popping up in my mind.. and all the times i had spent with her, kept flashing in and out. I couldn't believe.. I cried.. I cried aloud !

I know deaths are inevitable, and uncertain too.. We all know that , we all will die one day.. but, yet we feel a difficulty to accept it.. there are some people without whom our existence seems impossible.. Thousands of people die everyday.. We read about them and we forget.. Life encircles around death every moment.. and we cannot do anything about it. 

Nobody knows, when one is gonna bowled out. Grief follows. Every person is special for someone or the other.. Yet, life goes on.. people learn to live without them.. 

I, personally, felt a thunderstruck, when i realised that, we are never gonna see her again.. ever..ever.. ever.. nothing seemed to please me.. 

"mourns, mourns, mourns"

Monday, November 9, 2009

Suicide note

Mom and Dad...

I' m writing my last feelings on this note. This is my last communication with this world. I am sick and tired of this everyday routine. I wake up in the morning and i have to wash my hair with the same 'Sunsilk pink Shampoo' everyday. I' m tired of using that shampoo. I asked you so many times to get me L'oreal Elvive...but u never did.. U never did...  :(

Because of that shampoo, I've got one grey hair on my skull.. and you know how much i love my hair, my friends tease me of getting older.. and it is so shameful for me to hear that..I cant take this anymore.Thats why, I've crapped myself to death..

You' find me under the bed..

Lets see who u r gonna force to eat vegetables now..!!

Agape and very sincerely..
Ritika

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

ChiLLy WiNtErS..!!

After the blazing pangs of the sun,
Cool breezes soothes my soul,
I welcome winters,
with my open arms...

 Monotonous DAYS getting shorter, and
Relaxing NIGHTS getting longer ,
 Who doesnt love to sleep more?
so do I.. 

Early morning blues ,
muddled fog,
delayed flights and trains,
hail, winters.. !

Sweat glands stops functioning, 
 one feels the winters,
Who doesnt like to eat hot food?
blessed are the winters..!

Lotions and potions,
girls puff on their faces..
Dried skin.
yet ,WINTERs are beautiful..!! !

peas, carrots, 
radish, spinach 
 oranges , jaggery...
i welcome winters..!!

Colors it brings along ..
 Christmas, New Years..
moreover..
Marriages, wow.. winters..!!


I welcome winters with my open arms..!!! 







Friday, October 30, 2009

Dearest...

A word to say, a word to hear..
even in ur absence i feel you near,
i want you to see, i want u to feel
you are that important to me
as India's nuclear deal..


Day passes in pain..
with you,seems like a gain,
i plee you immensely..
leave me never lonely..


I am pining for love of you,
i yearn to be with thou,
Days pass cheerless,
nights, i roll wretched..


Come to me, my love
for your absence is distressing..
i feel you in my fingers,
i feel you in my toes...

and the gloom continues................

Monday, October 26, 2009

Face "not matching" psyche

She smiles,
she is happy,
she is jocular,
she is lovable,
she is surrounded,

but..

something is wrong,
something is unsaid,
Her inner turmoil is known only to her,
she refuses to share,
she can't speak her heart,
she cant drop her pearly tears,
perhaps,she is
a destitute
a desolate
the withdrawn
the secluded...


:(((



Friday, October 23, 2009

FOODIE GAGAS...

I am always hungry to eat.. I sometimes dont understand why do i eat so much.. Obviously I am aware of the repercussions of my increasing weight day by day.. But i just cannot resist the food..  I am a big time foodie, and when it comes to my favourites... I go gagas..

My day is incomplete if i dont eat any of my favourites all day long.. I feel so vacuous when i dont chew something, i wonder, whether i m living to eat.. When i smell the aroma of the food.. all kinds of fluids secrete in my mouth.. Now, lemme mention some of my favourites which i can never resist-watsoever may be.. PAANI POORI, MAGGIE, PANEER KI SABJI WITH NAAN, PIZZAS, MC D 'S BURGER, CHHOLE BHATURe, ICECREAMS, CHOCS,ALL KINDA SWEETS..n there are more.. (SHY)

I feel as if my life is at stake when anybody asks me to go for dieting... i feel like... completely frustrated.. I love street food, from the time i am in college.. Sometimes, when i dream of getting a slim figure.. one of a girly types.. i GET motivated.. but the next day, i cant resist... I am a tallow, and a bit oversized creature, i know... BUT , i cant give up food.. i was flabbergasted when one of my friend, said.. she was on dieting, even when she had a perfect figure.. 

Damm all those who diet.. i really cant, i have been trying from so long, but couldnt be succesful for more than two days.. and ya, exercising is what i am very lazy about, I often wonder how ll i look ..when i ll be fatter... but, I CANT GIVE UP MY FAVOURITES.. 

Everybody at my home, gives me various kinds of avarices to reduce down my weight ..yet I DONT CARE...

P.S- after reading this blog, if you think what kind of girl i am, dont bother... i love food, and my problem.. can be understood my only those.. who are facing the same problem...

I LOVE FOOD  (winks******)

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Mom's love

Something that is still pure.. is only mom's love.. I am her only daughter, I can now, make out that.. if the woman of the house is not selfless.. the family can never live in tranquility, if she always keep up her ego, i bet nobody in the family, would even care about her wellbeing...

I am writing all this today, because my mom made me incharge of the kitchen for two days.. and the days are unending.. they are the longest days ever.. I am hating all the household chores i have to do, but cannot back out, thinking of how she manages to do everything so perfectly...i can now understand how difficult is to manage a kitchen, but she MANAGES our houses, and make it so perfect for us to live that we are able to call it "home sweet home"and makes it the best place for us to live in.. Can anybody deny on this?We miss our homes, once we go away.. dont we..??I literally cried amuck when i last left my home, alone for a month.. 

She wakes up at 6'o clock in the morning, and does all the work untiringly , unselfishly..Always eats after we all have eaten, Why??? Just for one common reason, that she can do anything for her kids.. she sacrifices her aims, her ambitions, and find her only happiness in seeing us smile..  and we dont even compliment her for the food she cooks, dont even notice the new saree she puts on.. Believe me, i really got frustrated when my dad forgot to compliment me for the tasteless food i cooked, that was so unappetising that even i could nt eat.. but even then i needed the appreciation. I get annoyed when i put on a new dress, and nobody notices it.. i feel like not wearing it ever again...!!

Till date, whenever i cry.. i wipe off and carry a smile to her.. she, on the first go- asks me, why did i cry? i fail to understand how she manages to read my mind and my ostensible smile!! 

I often wonder, just after few more years.. how ll I be able to be so selfless.. how ll I shed all of my ego and manage to keep the same selfless smile that my mom displays.. Undoubtedly,God has made mothers his substitute.. Atleast I dont have any person in my life as her, but still why do we forget to tell her.. 

I am complete in tears by now.. Just wanna say, ACKNOWLEDGE HER,she ll love you even more then she did yesterday..!! :"( 

I LOVE U Mumma.. 

Saturday, October 10, 2009

SoMeOnE....


For someone, who is so dear..
for someone, who is altruistic to me..
for someone, who is matchless..
for someone, who is juzz mine...
i can't explain my love in the words..
yet... i m trying..
for the first time,when our eyes met..
there was a shiver in my retina,
for something was so just in your eyes
I LOVED YOUR EYES...
 Refined ettiquetes, Courteous speech
Heartthrobbing personality
Accutely amicable, Unselfishly soul,
words fall short to describe you
By then, i had fallen in love with you,
my heart 's brimming love for thou,
i love you against all odds
i love you with all my heart..
if ever, i had broken your heart..
kindly forgive me...
if ever i had been rude to you..
i apologize..
just be by my side,
and 
let your heart take toll over 
your worthy mind..
P.S.- dear someone.. hope you read this, and understand how much i love you.. :-(
I MISS YOU..

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Dearest Dad,

I am just thinking about the best words to describe you,
sanguine, nonchalant, serene, assiduous, are you..
Remembering all the things you have done for me;
you've been there always,
when i was riffling through my childhood pictures,
tears block my eye, when i see your embrace.
I can't count the number of times , 
you have been out of your way, just to be by my side,
You saw everything that came your way
good or bad..
whenever I am morbid, you become my smile
whenever i am feeling low, you become my mentor
whenever i have any problem, you become my solution
U ARE MY DAD..
I noticed, even when your days are'nt ravishing
you always manage to make me smile,
I never have to worry about being misjudged,
for you are there, dear pa..
You might not be the 
hero to the world,
but you the hero 
to your princess daughter....

Monday, October 5, 2009

SHARING N CARING IN A JOINT FAMILY

While most of the people in India now prefer to live in nuclear familes, I would yet love to live in a joint family once again....Yup, Once upon a time, i lived in a joint family where chords of love kept all the people deeply entangled. I learnt , how to love selflessly only from these special traditions..the different ways to adjust... the times when any of the member was going through any kind of pain....  the ways of sharing and caring..

I was a teenager by the time, we all broke up into nuclear families... i never gave a thought to how it feels in a nuclear family... but now I surely know the importance of the one... I always feel the utmost grief for the familes who divide.... reason,whatsover may be.... but living together was the most beautiful part of my life, Perhaps may be it was because, i spent my childhood in a joint culture...

Firstly, the idea of a big house excites me now.. I miss my home, it was huge... it was like a haveli... beautiful lush garden...peacocks dancing, a big garage.. a big ground for all of the kids to play... sand all over..and so many terraces(wow), smell of the sand during rainy season... my whole childhood -i never felt solitude, i had so many people to love me, to take care of me.. dont take me wrong, i still have people who love me,, but that was different... a complete different phase in my life...

Secondly, during all the festivals.. every member was so enthusiastic to participate in, to make every festival, every function a huge success.. Especially, i remember... all those festivals when the married females keep the fasts, and break only after seeing the moon... at nite, when we used to go to terraces ,,,what a soothing sky it seemed... i wonder, why are things not the same anymore... why sky seems only grey to me now... I often look up in the sky, and dont find anything so beautiful then those sights which i saw in my childhood...

I am the eldest daughter in the family, and the most loved- reason being usual, first child being extemely pampered among all... among all means-so many members in the same family... Everyday seemed to be a festival... anniversaries , birthdays followed year after year.. and now I am here... just missing my joint family...

MiSS you Amulya Adi Chachu Chachi..  :-(((


P.S.-Those who are looking ahead to divide their families,, give a second thought to it....

Friday, October 2, 2009

StRiNgS oF LoVe...



love is a feeling
of selflessness.........
love is a gesture
to make someone feel special,
love is divine
love is gorgeous...
Are you in love?? Well, if you are...you might be knowing that...Can u say, you love him/her without the smile... or let me put it simply, That can u confess your love when vexed.. I dont think so, try this with your "someone special"...  This very small activity, proves that love brings in loads of joy with it... although, it brings in pain too... but that very feeling of completeness... it is LOVE...
My definition of love is not very lengthy... indeed, it is simply about complete devotion and faithful to the person you are in love with.. Love is like an entrapment- once fallen into it, becomes nearly impossible to come "out of love"....
 
Life to all seems beautiful in love.. Different passions for everything else in the world, vanishes, and it is only the "feeling of love" that overtakes it... Nothing seems wrong, nothing seems right... one could go to any limit.... for that special smile of  their "BELOVED"....
Just by knowing the fact that somebody really cares for you.. and will be there for you each time you need them, fills the heart with the feeling of "completeness".... 
Strings of love- by my title would like to emphasise that it brings in joys + pains together... in every relation, there are ups and downs , so in this one,too..... it is rightly said... 'each love story has a happy ending-if it is not a happy ending, story is yet incomplete...' ,,so watch out your stories and decide... whether it is happy or sombre....!!!
Feel those bouncing butterflies in your stomach each time while saying you love them... 
Moreover, stay happy... stay contended..!!!!

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

READ ON... if u wanna know me better...!!

  1. I took eng(h) because i thought it would it would be simpler... but ,lately it was proven wrong..
  2. I dont like to travel..not even to my college...n always reach late..my frnz in college know dis better...
  3. i can never go on hunger strikes.... for i love eating....
  4. i admire the natural beauty...for i dont waste time looking myself into mirror... (i feel i m nt beautiful ) so y to waste time on non-beautiful things..  ;-)
  5. Very recently,i have fallen in love with books.... n finally i love reading(i wish my dad reads this,he ll be happiest to know this)
  6.  All day .. i think about words...!!! (dont think i m mad)...
  7. i love watching movies
  8. Often gets philosophical... :-((
  9. I hate magical books+movies...esp,harry potter....  (mrinal-dont comment) 
  10. I love making puddings n chocolates
  11. I love eating maggi... cant even express my love for maggi...
  12.  I wish to be a little girl...for  i knw my childhood was the best in my life.. never will my days be so beautiful..
  13. I avoid making friends who drink and smoke...
  14. i would love to get an alchohalic hangover once...JUSST ONCE.. god,,,,plzz...
  15.  i love my name-RITS over Ritika...
  16. I love calligraphy....  i love the art of handwriting...
  17. People say...i have a beautiful handwriting....!!!!
  18. I love icecreams, esp-cornetto
  19. i love whites  :-)))
  20. i dislike greens..
  21. whenever i meet moni, all my pains vanish away...she has magic wand...
  22. i cry while watching movies...soap operas... moreover ...even while reading
  23. I love romance as a genre..over all detectives n gothics..n what not...
  24. I no more love talking on phones... thanks to the special lectures given by mayank, thank u..it has helped me a lot..
  25. The idea of my marriage displeases me..
  26. I like guys with specks....P.S- not all...
  27. I believe in law of karma...n i m scared of it..
  28. i eat rice wid ma hands .... i love dat way...
  29. i love soft toys,, to cuddle dem esp..   :-))
  30. i sleep with pillows all over my bed.... 
  31. i always pass a smile to babies... in return, i get the most pleasing smile back...(not always)
  32. i love to eat paani poori....wen moni accompanies me.. it adds to more flavours
  33. i love writing poems...but cant match my rhymes ever...
  34. i make infinite grammatical errors..
  35. i would love to go on a beach wid my love...under the moonlit sky...
  36. my perfect advicer- moni
  37. i hate to eat apples..
  38. i love MORNINGS...  :-)))
  39. i go to temple on thursdays..
  40. i love my day ...wen papa wakes me up...
  41. i prefer a stick of a rose..to boquet..-to give as well as to take..
  42. i dislike people who keep on praising themselves....there are people like dat..
  43. i love clicking my own pictures  :-))
  44. i love making cards...but only for those special people i love tru to my heart or respect..
  45. i feel disgust on the idea of spreading rumours
  46. i love romantic movies...like kuch kuch hota haii.. 
  47. I would love to make a scrap book for my LOVE..
OH, that was pretty long ....  i cant think more about self presently...  
will catch up soon with another write-up..!!
till den,adieu..!! :-))

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

L.I.F.E. C.O.L.O.U.R.S. !!!






Colours are the manifestation of the life itself. They are the most noticeable attribute of the world around us... 

Close your eyes for a few seconds and just imagine the surroundings without any colour.....oopss..!!COULD YOU EVEN IMAGINE..??I , perhaps failed..I was wonderering from long that how could life be even possible without these beautiful colours surrounding us...There exists nothing to my imagination without colours..Life would be dull, azoic, monotonous with the absence of colours...When we observe the things around us minutely, only then the beauty of colours can be seen...Colours , undoubtedly add exquisite flavours into our lives...Hardly there are people who notice the aesthetics of amalgamated colours,and the natural mixing...Right from the food we eat to clothes we wear and,to the surroundings we are habitated in.. All are immensely colourful....and it adds to joy in the lives of the homosapiens..for sure...COLOURS ARE EXPLICIT..

ecstatic RED...   Soothing GREEN...   Cool BLUE...   Flirty PINK...

While I was strolling in the park the another day.. i noticed so many striking, most beautiful forms of the colours...like of the delicate butterflies, appreciated the multi coloured flowers , the magnificent peacocks, and all the different kinds of birds...The one bird i love, is what we refer to as "GOODLUCK " birds...I am sure,only few of you are aquaintainted of it...but it 's too gurly-worly to see them, n predict your day to be peaceful n happy... It proved to be extremely refreshing to oberve..

Warm YELLOW... Revered SAFFRON... Effulgent GOLD...Invincible ORANGE....

Human lives are deeply connected with colours in every way, by now u must have realized how beautiful each colour is,and how important it is, that makes the place around you, so very lively to live...therefore,colours are explicit...!!!

Electric MAGENTA..B'ful CYAN..Zapping VIOLET...Elegant SIVER.....

Well, in India...A very special festival..."HOLI-festival of colours" adds to the cherry on the top..Its spectacular to watch how people play with colours...WHAT FUN, it is to see the colourful faces of the people all around us...Moreover, there is a channel called 'COLOURS' ,which depicts the various cultures and phases of lives of he people all around 'OUR INCREDIBLE INDIA'...!!

Exotic PURPLE..Serene WHITE..Demonic black..Exquisite MAROON

Colourless life would be as a "lifeless living" , as a corpse lying in the graveyard..Various tones and shades of colours are deeply connected with our moods... the morbid we are,there is a fondness for dull colours...and the gay we are, we love the brighter tones...!!BUT, ABOVE ALL...we love colours ... Dont we??

Saturday, September 19, 2009

A Touching Incident

Well, This is my very first post...so I thought about a hell lot of topics that i can write on...but i chose this one because it made me feel good about myself...

I was travelling in a metro,was on the way back to home from my college...as my usual routine, i took a metro from Kashmere Gate metro station... In a short span of getting into the train,there is a lot of hustle bustle on that station particularly...Everybody wished to get into the train first...AND TAKE A SEAT...

Now let me tell you,that getting a seat during the peak hours of the day in the metro..is itself a big achievement for me atleast...LUCKILY,i got it one today...I happily seated myself, and was enjoying the songs I listen to,on my headfones...

I noticed an elderly sardarji standing , and normally whenever I see any elderly person standing and I m sitting..I offer my seat to him/her...

So that day also I gave my seat to him while I stood up..He refused me at once but later,he seated well..

It was a normal incident to me till now, and I again got back to my music and was thinking about my day...i stood myself near the metro door...as I love standing near the doors..

It was about 20minutes, and then that old man rose up from the seat as he was to get down at the next station..He stood besides me..and said me,take ur seat again now,beta...THANKyou..!!!

Now,this whole incident was touching because of the word THANKYOU..So many times in the metro, I had offered my seat...but nobody ever uttered these words,and even I thought....that this cause is so small for so "difficult" words like thankyou...but it made a difference today...and it did brought a smile on my face, particularly because there were so many people in the metro...and that uncle said me thank you..for such a small thing..!!!I never expected a one...so it is making me feel the way I am feeling now...

NOTE: I am very emotional.. Bare with me...!!